So it's been a while since I've been on Xanga.  All I can say is...Jesus is awesome! 

We've been spending time in prayer meeting and at church on the topic of The Passion for Jesus.  It wasn't until recently I was exposed to the reality that God loves me.  I mean, I say I know it, I hear people say it, but I never thought about how important this concept was to me.  All the songs I sing, write, hear are songs of how much we love God, but not the other way around.  It wasn't until IHOP two weeks ago in Kansas City, MO where it dawned on me the need to know, experience, and understand God's love for me in order for me to love Him.  The more I understood and felt His love for me, the more I was able to love Him back.  It was like, once I understood and realized this concept...this truth, everything around me in my life didn't matter.  I felt free to worship God.  My job, my future, everything was nothing compared to the knowledge and greatest of knowing my God because He belongs first in my life. 

God has a plan for me and for us all.  deterring it, prolonging it, or speeding it up against His will can end up in disaster.  I must say the start of 2007 until now has been a tremendous faith challenge, but it was been a worthwhile one with God on my side.  I realize now that no matter how much I plan for the future, how much money I save up, how set in life I am, all of it is nothing compared to what God has for me.  For God can take all of these things away with a snap of His fingers. 

I've just recently learned this song...like ten minutes ago .  It sums up my prayer, my goal in life, and my desire. 

Above All Else

Jesus my passion in life is to know You
May all other goals bow down to
This journey of loving You more

Jesus You've showered Your goodness on me
Given Your gifts so freely
But there's one thing I'm longing for

PreChorus:
Hear my heart's cry
And my prayer for this life

Chorus:
Above all else
Above all else
Above all else
Give me Yourself

Proverbs 3:5-6

One of my favorite verses....and listening to Jeremy Camp - Trust in You

Trust in You

When I can’t see You I know You’re there
When I can’t feel You I will not fear
I will trust in You and I will not be afraid.
When the battle is close at hand
Though You’re with me and help me stand
I will trust in You and I will not be afraid.

I will not be afraid
I will not be afraid
I will trust in you

When the darkness is close at hand
And I‘m running against the wind
I will trust in you and I will not be afraid.
When I’m standing upon that shore
All the battles I’ve gone before
I will trust in you, and I will not be afraid.

'Cuz I will not be afraid
I will not be afraid
I will trust in you

'Cuz I will not be afraid
I will not be afraid
'Cuz I will not be afraid
I will not (whoaho) be afraid
I will trust in you

Sometime ago, I wrote a song....well, I'll let it explain to you how I was feeling:

My Despair

In my despair, I look for a place to hide
In my despair, to reflect upon my pride
In my despair, where do I go for help
In my despair, I feel I'm by myself
And I sink to a new low
Everything around I ignore
My soul it yearns for more
Of what, I don't know
But then I see the Lord

And when I know that He's there (And I know that You're here)
He brings me up a cheer (You bring me up a cheer)
Casts down my fears (Cast down my fears)
And He shows me He cares (And You show me You care)
Whispers in my ear
This time of the year
I try so hard to hear
But I know that He's there (But I know that You're here)

In my despair, You found a place for me
In my despair, I found that place and see
In my despair, Your arms, they're open freely
In my despair, into Your arms I flee
And I feel secure with You
You brought me out of the blue
Now I know what to do
My mind is renewed
Everytime I look to You

Bridge:

Well, I know that You are near
And I know You always care
And I my eyes they tear (happy tears =P)
When I know that You are here

Yesterday was a joyous day!  My parents were baptized.  I've never felt so much happiness, peace, comfort, and....wow...I'm still speechless and in awe of God's greatness and LOVE!!!!!!!

Thank you all who were there to witness this glorious occasion.  It really, really, really meant a lot to me and my family.  Thanks for all the love, prayers, and support over the years. 

PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!

PRAISE GOD AGAIN!!!!!!!

I'm in a good mood today.  I'm praising God for a lot of things in my life (God, family, friends).  This Sunday was one of the happiest moments of my life (ie: next to getting married...whenever that comes...hopefully it comes, having a baby).  My parents have made the decision to get baptized in Novemeber!!!  The long journey of praying, struggles, more praying, waiting, and waiting has come to an end.  Thank you Lord...thank You!!!!!!!

Talking to both my parents today during dinner, they shared how God has truly been speaking to them.  My mom shared how she was crying during service this Sunday and how she's never felt so happy and relieved at how much God was speaking to her.  This song was an expression of how I felt when I first found God, and I believe my parents are feeling this way too.

Power of Your Love - Geoff Bullock

Lord, I come to You, let my heart be changed, renewed,
Flowing from the grace, That I found in You
Lord, I've come to know, The weaknesses I see in me,
Will be stripped away, By the power of Your love

Hold me close, Let Your love surround me
Bring me near, Draw me to Your side
And as I wait, I'll rise up like the eagle      
And I will soar with You, Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your Love

Lord unveil my eyes, Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love, As You live in me
Lord renew my mind, As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day, In the power of Your Love